The conversation began because I had intended for this one guy to become a regular but he wasn't living up to his position. I'd only seen him once and it barely counted because of particular circumstance that night.
The reason this conversation even began is because he was depressed for a while and I told him we should go out, maybe catch a movie or play pool, my treat. And he got into how he's not sure if he feels comfortable and Blah Blah Blah.
B: Well for one thing you gotta man.
B: I'll do the mistress thing but you takin it a little bit further
Me: Lmfao u have no idea how i play smh its all good if u got a conscience. And it wasnt even that serious. I was just chillin wit u as a friend and spottin u just so we could chill & u could get ur mind off the stress. But like I said im sure someone else would take up the offer. Plus I wasnt even thinkin of u as a mistress bc that road wit u was beginning to seem pointless.
B: Yea lol ur right I don't. But everyone has a conscience. I just over analyze things sometimes. On the real I thank you for that but i just dont feel right.
B: Especially the fact that I know your bf
B: That's just me
Me: So y do anything in the first place?
Me: And ur wrong about everyone have a conscience. Mine died about 6-7 years ago.
B: Remember the status I had lol I mean I would love to keep it going but like you said your taken.
B: Lol yea right you can't just act on things and not think about it
B: Especially in this situation
Me: Unless it has to do with my kid then I pretty much can. I wish we could've hung out more so u coulve gotten to kno me a lil better. Im a pretty fun person. And I honestly dont think its fair that u can feel like fuckin & get what u want and all i got out of the ituation was a fuckin tease but its okay. I respect ur boundaries, u just shouldnt have crossed them if u were gunna act like such a pussy afterwards :)
Me: And I don't mean that in any offensive way lol
Me: Listen on the real I am a cheater. It's who I am & its fine if u dont want to play the role - someone else will come along eventually. I'm just picky. Thanks tho for the one experience and keepin it between us. After today it never happened. Not even to me. K?
B: I feel the same way. I know but damn so many things get in the way you don't really know what to do
B: I mean i just like to play the game the smart way and not think with my dick ALL the time
B: No offense takin lol
Me: What things get in the way? id rather play it safe too thats y if u were to play the part i woulda started payin for tellies or eventually found a place we could've rocked wit no worries. Damn ur so cute too... such a waste smh
B: So since you say that how would u n me woulve worked out. Thats a major trust issue.
B: Im not sayin to stop either but if you feel that way I can't say anythin
B: Obstacles in life that I'm going thru n shit. You just caught me in a bad time that's all
B: :/
Me: Whats a major trust issue? Sorry im not on the same page here...
B: The fact that you say your a "cheater"
Me: Oh I see what u saying okay but u are not the one being cheated on. Thats y ur position is the best one. I barely have enuff time in my schedule to fuck with u so u wouldn't have to worry about me fuckin anyone beside my bf.
B: That's why I'm saying I'm not with it takin it to that level. I know you say your tryin to help me out which I thank you greatly but I'd rather not get into that
B: Best position or not I'd rather not deal with more stress than im already coping with right now
Me: How would our relationship bring u stress??? Man I'm just trying to have a good time & enjoy life. U should just stfu and come over tonight.
Me: And I'm really trying to help myself more than u. Helpin u is a plus tho :)
B: I told you, when somebody is 'a cheater' its hard for somebody to trust em especially in a relationship. No offense to you.
Me: I take no offense. I just can't grasp ur issue. Why do u need to trust me? How could i betray u? Can't u rell how fuckin honest I am? I'm beginning to get frustrated.
B: I just wanna keep our relationship at a certain level where we won't catch feelings. Remember were just talkin about a date here lol
B: Don't get frustrated its not that serious
Me: Lmfao do u think u'd catch feelings? And ur right its not that serious but if im not getting anything out of this convo i feel like its a waste of time and i dont like being wasteful
B: You never think you will till it happens. I'm not saying it will I'm just saying I'd rather not let it get
there.
B: Well okay I guess bye then if you really feel that way
I was EXTREMELY tempted to just respond with Bye and leave it at that but since I'm not a total heartless bitch I attempted to salvage the relationship
Me: I can promise u that even if I were to catch feeling it wouldn't result in stress or any negative outcome
Me: And it wasn't really a date. We were just gunna chill. Maybe fuck afterwards. But that's what friends are for :)
Me: We only fucked once for christ sake & that barely counts cuz of the circumstances that night. How r u even thinking about feelings. Look, do u want to chill with me again? Yes or no?
B: All I'm saying is that I don't feel comfortable going on a date. That's all. I just wanna prevent anythin
B: Yes I do lol
Me: Fine so when can we fuck again?
B: How about tomorrow night
Me: Possibly. I'll let u kno
SERIOUSLY?! This was one of the most pointless conversation of my life. And I felt like I was talking to a dumb bitch. Although I'm tempted to cut him off completely he left the door open just enough for me to get him where I want him...
